Found My Zen
>> Saturday, September 13, 2008
With 23 days between beta and first ultrasound, I've had lots of time to work up a good level of anxiety. I'm still not quite as far along as I was when I started bleeding last time, so there's that fear, and then there's the worse fear that I could make it as far as my ultrasound only to discover a blighted ovum or some other problem. Time has been crawling by. I so badly want this baby to make it!
I'm not sure what, if anything, is different, but today I woke up feeling peaceful and positive. I have found my zen and hope I can hang onto it for another 12 days, until I can see for myself that everything's okay. I'm so excited to see the tiny flickering heartbeat of MY BABY.
Happy weekend, everyone. :)
3 comments:
Yay for zen! I'm sure it'll be amazing when you see it :)
It will be very exciting to get to see your u/s! So happy for you!
It's great you are feeling this way! I had a similar experience when I was about 6-7 weeks, I was always worrying and making myself sick with worst case scenarios. All of a sudden while I was driving one day I had this huge wave of calmness take over and I just knew everything would be OK. Everytime after that I would start to worry, I just remembered that feeling and all was well! Hope the next few days go by fast so you can finally see your sweet baby!
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