Now What?

I am done with being philosophical. Now I'm perturbed.

My bloodwork on Thursday showed that my hCG had gone down to 18. Okay, good. I started bleeding on Friday, and it was horrible, and it continued over the weekend. They checked my hCG again this morning — and it had gone up ever so slightly to 21. How is this even possible? Dr. L called me himself to tell me the news and to explain that he wants me to have an ultrasound (the full bladder kind) to make sure there's nothing in my tubes. I'm pretty sure my tubes are fine, and anyway, he said an hCG of 21 indicates about 30 or 40 cells. That's hardly anything — can't we just ignore them and hope they go away? :p

Assuming everything's fine and these mystery cells disappear, Dr. L thinks we should try on our own for three cycles, after avoiding for one cycle, to see if we can conceive naturally again. As much as I love the idea of conceiving naturally, my cycles are long — at least 37 days — and unreliable. If we follow his suggestion and we don't conceive, IUI #3 won't be until October or November or maybe even later! (My idea of a July IUI was never gonna happen anyway; he's on holidays from June 21 to July 21 and the office is completely closed for most of that time. Must be nice.)

Man, this sucks.